But that isn't actually a bad thing.
Over time I have found some very special friends, one of them clicking along right away with me.
So much alike that it is amazing to find someone like that again.
Yet deep inside it scares me.

I barely know them and yet I feel this enormous spiritual attraction to them.
A small spark that rekindles the fire within,
Igniting the fires of my once burnt out heart.
The pain suddenly sparks anew, a sudden reluctance for fear of repetition.
Why? Why do you do this?

Why am I drawn to you like a moth to a flame?
You make me feel like something I once had before.
A caring smile, a dearest friend, a loving soul.
All my likes and dislikes are the same as yours,
all our attractions the same distinct specifics.
Your eyes sparkle like gems and you are heavenly, taking my breath away, yet again I've only seen you on the web.
Just like before.

My soul cries out and wants that familiar urge to hold someone close, yet my heart stammers and hides within the recesses of my self.
I'm whirling around in confusion and uncertainty.
It all happens so fast.
And I type, I feel the moisture and salt fall from my face,
for I am slowly coming to the realization.
And it scares me.

I found someone who once again brightens my day, makes my sun shine, makes the birds sing, and re-tunes the music to my being.
And I don't know whether to be happy or sad.
Because I broke a promise to my family.
Because I feel things happening all over again.
Because once again...

I feel myself falling in love.